Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Knitting in Motion: The Real Me

April at Coffee Crazy Knitter wrote a beautiful post about being herself. She talked about how she has grown to be comfortable in her skin. And she shared a photo of her knitting. Not staged, just her, sitting in her jammies, knitting.

She asked for other "Real" photos.

So last night I asked The Greatest to take a picture of me while I was knitting.

"Why?"

"For my blog."

"Why are you going to put a picture of you in that robe on your blog?"

"Because...It's this thing...All my friends are doing it."

Shaking his head "You have some weird friends. Where's the camera?"

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This is me in one of the two places I knit. The Greatest and I are odd. We are almost always in the same room together. We just are. Rarely are we home at the same time and we're not in the same room. I can't explain it. I didn't even think of it consciously until I started writing this post. We just like to be in the same room. So if The Greatest is playing a computer game I sit on the bed and watch TV and knit.

That's me in my pink robe. I have two, one long and furry for winter, one short and terry for summer. I love them, they're comfy and pink. The Greatest hates both of them. Much to his displeasure I wear them anyways. To my left is my knitting bag with the stuff for my latest project. I'm knitting two socks on two circular needles, my favorite way to knit socks. One yarn ball in on my left side, the other on my right. Off frame on my right is my Vogue Stictionary. I'm working on a new sock pattern. But that's how I sit, bag on my left, instructions on my right, legs out in front of me. I look pretty good because I took a shower earlier that day.

The other place I knit is my couch. Different location, but the pose is still the same, ugly robe, bag on left, instructions on right, legs propped up on the coffee table.

I understand what April was saying about feeling comfortable in her skin. I never want to be a teenager in again. Sometimes I wanted to scream just to relieve this consuming feeling of want that was inside me. I couldn't define it or explain it, or make it go away. It was rage, and desire, and emptiness, a longing for something but for what I couldn't say, this big nothing that was tearing at my soul. It's so nice to not have that anymore. I'm just me. That's enough. I don't want more or less. I'm just me in my pink robe.

But my legs do look pretty good in that picture. You can tell The Greatest took the photo.

12 comments:

Lynda said...

That'd probably be pretty close to the conversation at our house..."you have weird friends!" But, you do have great legs!

Thanks for sharing your picture and your thoughts.

Sonya said...

DH and I have reached the point that "It's for the blog" stops any commentary on my weirdness. We're always in the same room too, but it's because our house is so small. Good picture; you look totally comfy. And I agree completely about being a teenager. yuck.

tArA nIcHoLe said...

I have to ask... So... are you like... naked under the robes when you knit...??

shiguy4076 said...

You look so peaceful on your bed knitting. I like your robe. I'm all about comfort.
Shi

candsmom said...

I love this idea of posting real knitting photos! Now, if I looked as beautiful as you in my robe on the bed, I'd have no problem sharing! ;-) Not to mention having perfect legs AND shaved, at that!! Kidding aside, though, I completely relate to the happiness of finding comfort in your own skin that the wisdom of the years affords. Take care, Mamma! :-)

Katrina said...

What a sweet picture. You do look peaceful.

You described the teenage years so well. Sometimes I think about what it would be like to go back and do them over knowing what I know now, but then I realize that everyone else around me would still be acting like teenagers, and the thought goes away, like that.

Chris said...

What a great picture!! I hear ya about being comfortable in your skin - it's the best part about getting older.

And who knew it would come to a point (I think this way, too - you should see me on the days when I work at home) where we'd be saying "I looked pretty hot - I took a shower earlier." :D

Karyn said...

i'm also always in the same room as my guy. it's just the way it is. i love the pic by the way!

Amy said...

What a great post! Funny thing about the pink robe. I had 2 also just like you. We had a pink robe burning party otherwise I would of never given it up. Now, I just have my summer one.

Aprilynne said...

COOL! Thanks! what a good post =) I linked you in my last post along with the others I've found, if you find any others who wantto be in the linked list - point them my way =) aprilynnekATyahooDOTcom

Lori said...

We're also always in the same room together, and if we're not the other one is always like, "what are you doing?"

Tricotine said...

Great Pic! You look so comfy!

Sounds like conversation with my DH!!! LOL

Did you see my "Knitting in Motion" pics?
http://tricotine.blogspot.com/2006/04/real-me-knitting-in-motion.html#links

April sure did have a fun idea! LOL